June to October

June 17, 2013
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Time given as the news breaks
One slice left of celebratory cake
Minutes to procrastinate
Adds up to infinite hours too late
At the table they all sit but do not say
For the truth is written in many different ways
For one freedom lies ahead
But for another a sentence for the words never said
The heat of the summer and the coldness of tomorrow
All the time she was given was theirs to borrow
A piece of him ran away
A piece of her will always stay
Faces unrecognizable in the mirror
As yesterday becomes clearer
Crutches made out of pills
Disabling the ability to feel
Checking for a pulse he becomes sober
As June fades away into October

Pardon the Interruption

June 13, 2013
Poetry
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I put my faith into a love no one else can see
I don’t need a hand in order to still believe
Now of days people change their feelings more than their clothes
I stand true to this love I know
On my knees the pain cripples me
But than I close my eyes and see her face, get back up and breathe

She & Him

June 12, 2013
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He writes to her in a coded language
Fighting back urges they still end up living like savages
She beats her mind up against a wall
He measures them up to her so they seem small
He loves her to the point of no return
She carries his words around like an urn
He lives inside a hope filled tomb
She lies in a big empty bed inside her room
She tries to deny the truth
But their love holds the key to the fountain of youth
She lives in black and white
She grips his corpse and gives it life
She breathes existence into his dreams
She’s overwhelmed with doing the right thing
He dreams of a better world
He gave his all away to a girl
He doubts what’s inside of him
He waits for her out on a limb

To a Sick Tired Girl Standing in Front of the Mirror Asking Herself Why

June 10, 2013
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Been looking for that exhausted girl that’s been running away from her fears
That stubborn girl who is willing to live with her mind and not her heart for the rest of her years
Where do you run to
How often does your toughness come unglue
You ever close your eyes and just know there’s something missing, that something just isn’t right
Do you ever long for me so much that it wakes you in the middle of the night
Do you ever hate yourself because of the feelings you have for me
How crazy does it drive your control issues that you can’t rewrite destiny
I long for a voice of reason to tell me that I am not crazy
I search for a hand to hold mine that not only understands but also believes
You’ve been running
And I plan on staying
Love is all we need
I’m scared but still love is all I see

Unorthodox

June 8, 2013
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I try my best to pick up these pieces and carry on
But truth be told I can’t
Sure there are moments, even hours that goes by without a thought of her
But when that moment comes it knocks the wind from my lungs
It grips my heart and prevents it from beating
I see her when I dream, I see how things ought to be
She’s holding onto him as I’m alone holding onto these thoughts that she has already forgotten
Who am I to her but a mistake
As every memory constantly haunts me to the point I want to give up on everything
But I keep breathing, keep hoping for that day
Forever dreaming a fool I am
Just a boy standing in front of a girl waiting for her to take my hand

Status Update

May 28, 2013
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You’re gone and my whole world got rearranged
So many days have come and gone but nothing changed
The pain in my heart is a ticking bomb
They no longer ask but I still miss my mom

I Forget (mama)

May 28, 2013
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Somedays I close my eyes and I can no longer picture her
Try to think of a memory but it’s all a blur
I forget the sound of her voice speaking to me
I try so hard to remember that I forget to breathe
Filled with so many regrets
But somedays I wake and I forget
Feels like you’re still here
Still feeling my innocence I carry on with no tears
I wonder what you’re up to
Making dinner and I forget what to do
I grab my phone
And realize I’m on my own
Days turns to months and people no longer ask; how am I doing and if I’m ok
I lost my mom but for them it’s just another day
I will never be able to speak to her again
So all I’m asking for is a comfort of a good friend