The words I write fall meaninglessly of this page
As the words you once spoke start to show their age
There is no common ground left for either of us to stand
And I am growing weak and cannot keep up with my heart’s demands
For my love is eternal and shall never fade
But perhaps some monsters are best kept locked away

I sit alone
Staring at my phone
I see your face in black and white
And all these urges I must fight
Fuck you for being so damn beautiful
I need to find a way to make all this love usable
I feel so feeble in my attempt to forget the past
I let it all go but I fall too fast
I can no longer grasp this reality
Some things are not meant to be
I try to breathe but I start to hyperventilate
I see your face and I feel it in my heart and I cannot escape this fate
And I know there’s not much left
But it’s all yours till my last breath
So I look again and I cannot look away
It’ll never end so I just love the day

It’s just a thought
What is real and what is not
Feelings go unexplained
Heartache surrounds with no blame
But still there’s love to be found
Even without tiptoeing around
Little pieces to the puzzle
It’s a picture I painted in a bubble
If I speak it’ll all come out strange
Even though we grow nothing will ever change
I see a picture and my heart melts
I fumble for words to explain what is felt
How can a stranger feel so proud
I’m not crazy enough to say these things out loud
But when I see my heart does rejoice
And all the beauty and all the love I choose to embrace without a voice
Two years down and lifetime to go
So much love that I could never show

Staring through my rearview

I keep searching for you

Switching lanes

But it all stays the same

You were like my cruise control

But cruising in a stolen car took its toll

I was just a footnote on your collapsing ever after

I thought I was your leading man but I was just another supporting actor

I couldn’t fix what was broken behind that smile

Every day for you I went that extra mile

So my hands are clean when it comes to your troubled heart

I tried to love you but you didn’t want any part

I should be done but random thoughts always lead back to you

I guess my heart is slow because it doesn’t have a clue

For you it still beats

For you I still write in hopes that you still read

Now I know that we will always be a never

But you will always be my forever

 

This love I have for you, it’s shameless

I could beat my head against a wall and it’s painless

I love you too selfishly to ever be your friend

I write you so many texts but I could never hit send

I watch you from a distance, never knowing what to say

Holding on to memories and any words you throw my way

I wish I knew how to write my way back into your heart

And I wish I knew the moment for you when the hope of us fell apart

Did I give you too much love, did I saturate your heart

Were we just a fleeting moment always destined to part

You gave what you could but I’ll always want more

Now you’re a ghost that I keep reaching for

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You’re a constellation of stars

I’m a consolation in your heart

I broke your façade

You left me flawed

We always would color outside the lines

We broke all the rules and now we’re paying for all our fines

And I love you still

And always will

Do you ever miss me?

Do you still dream?

I’ve spun a lot of lies in my life time

I’ve been a ghost, a romantical mime

I’ve framed misconceptions on the walls

I’ve gave nothing and claimed it was my all

But never with you

Every last nanosecond was utterly true

There are no real questions but I still hope you say yes

Just know that I will always love you and don’t ever expect nothingness